Yes I was, I was trying to convince her that she could be whatever she wanted to be and at the same time I felt bad when she was acting but didnt told her.
How did/do your words affect other people ?
For what she told me, the really affected her, I am block and I cant see how my words affected others, I just want to see how the words of others affected me, I cant see why others didnt understand what things I went thrue, they didnt understand what I had or was going thrue and everybody wanted me to move on fast from my pains and just be fine, so I never could really dwell on things, I always felt bad for having feelings and dwell and deal with harsh situations.
Is she the only one that you have had issue with over the years ??? No, I had many girlfriends that left me as well.
Was anything that you did or said intended to harm her ?
No, I never had that intention, I was insecure with some of her actions and felt bad for feeling insecure. I just didnt and dont know how to react differently, I always thing I am less than everybody else.
You just have to open yourself up to it...
How can I open myself to that?
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
