Wants to leave again after a month!!!

[DFE]

I'm so tired. It's a roller coaster that I want to end.

I decided to be the one to leave. That way I can stay at my parents house 5 minutes away and there is no long term commitment on his part renting another place. I'm only doing it for a few days to give us both a breather.

Why can't I believe this is over? Why?

I still think we are going to put it back together. I miss my kids dearly. I don't want them to be without either parent. Do I just let go and move on? Divorce is no joke. There isn't turning around from it. This will hurt us all and I wanted to spare us the hurt. Our business will me hurt as well which means all of our lives will change. I'm lost, hurt, and confused