The silence continues. Today was the first day in many months that we did not speak at all. It makes me sad but I know that as the days pass it will get easier. I feel like we have taken a huge step backwards but maybe it was something that needed to happen. Man...I can't remember what it used to be like when life was just normal and easy. It seems like a lifetime ago.
It's all normal. Let go of the past, it won't be coming back neither the good nor the bad.
After my H's surgery last week, I've had a few internal skirmishes with The Fixer. Usually I want to fix something because I'm uncomfortable, there's unease within me. I don't really know what the other person is feeling or if my fixing will actually make the situation better, I just want my anxiety to go away.
We're fixing junkies.
It's interesting what can happen when we just sit with that anxiety and just observe.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
