I wanted you to really think about what I was saying yesterday, an what Lost is saying to you.
Like Lost, I want people to really see things for them self, and come up with what they think...not what I see, or tell them...
BB....
I don't really need or want an explanation. None of this has to make sense to me...
It only has to make sense to you, and you alone....
What we are saying (well at least me), is that you are still way too attached to her actions and words.
Nothing seems to roll off of your back, because you don't believe in yourself first....
You are still reliant on what she thinks of you...
This woman, who has told you repeatedly that she wants nothing to do with you, still motivates your thoughts and actions...
And none of seems to stick. You get so far, and do really well, and then she vacuums you right back into her nest. So that you can be her whippin boy, and you are comfortable in doing that, because YOU still see this as a marriage, and partnership, relationship...
You have to have faith in yourself, that you are worthy of living.
You are worthy of owning your own choices and decisions, that are separate from hers, or the marriage.
And until you believe in yourself, you are going to keep doing this dance....
Own your stuff, stop making excuses for her, for yourself, and for the marriage....
And just do it....
And before you come back and give me this long "I know" ???
No, you don't know....or you wouldn't be doing it
And if you don't want your spouse (notice I didn't nor ever say Wife?) to know you better that you know yourself ????
