I know you guys are right. But man was I feeling it the other day.

It retrospect I learned a lot from it because I actually realized how hard I have been on myself my whole life and how destructive it has been.

Rick - I really have no idea why I would focus so much energy on my f-ups. No idea.

SIAS - if my daughters messed up I would forgive them and still believe they are the most wonderful creatures in the universe. Maybe one day I could do that for myself.

Hopefully the next time it wont be as bad.


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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13