and keep in mind, eventually it WILL, regardless of what self-imposed time limit you give yourself -- you won't be able to control how fast her deceit and lack of respect for you and your marriage will erode your love for her
I know this to be true.
For now, I can still rationalize it as "her sickness", and "a phase", etc. (not in any way to minimize my part in this) But with each passing week I wonder how on earth someone of her faith can live such a lie. And I wonder more and more how I much I can trust someone who can be so deceptive and disrespectful for such an extended period of time.
It will take a real commitment on her part. As I told her a couple of months ago, we're both very strong people and can work this out if we choose to.
But I don't have to worry about that now. That's a challenge for another day, with any luck.
