Every time HIS mood changes, I start trying to figure out why.
I can make this make sense by saying: Well, I'm trying to figure out if what I'm doing is working to bring him closer to me. He's obviously not acting closer to me. And so then I head down that "mind-reading slippery slope" - wellll, it COULD be this ... or it COULD be that - justifying myself by thinking I'm "monitoring results." Clearly, I'm instead just on a self-destructive, mind-screwing slippery slope. I'm getting into his crazy.
Despite circumstances, my boundary-drawing isn't drawing him closer to me. Duly noted. But it could just be too early.
THAT's how I need to focus, yes?
Now, how to continue to detach and stick to what's working ... while also being able to "experiment and monitor results" (without being drug into his messed-up head and circumstances) ...
I'm up for pointers!
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
