Don't know if im on the edge anymore or not....

[dingo]

NC has been suggested to me before and the few times I tried it, she did 'come back' after pretty short periods of time - with all the promises of 'this time I mean it.' I got into the habit of making excuses for her after learning about what she was going through and some of the advice/comments here - 'she's confused' 'this is very difficult for her' etc.

I didn't stick to my guns when she did this and enabled her to waver back and forth - partly out of what I felt was compassion, but mostly out of just missing her and wanting her in my life and honestly thinking that this time she really does mean it.

Anyway - more reflections on past events. I am accepting of her choice even if I don't understand it and probably never will. I truly don't know if she will follow up with it and am dreading having to decide what I need to do if she doesn't.