Thanks for making me a fighter...

[wishing, hoping]

It's something I have had since I was a little girl. Something I continue to work on. H knows this about me and he uses it to his advantage. My mom is the same way and she has unintentionally passed this baggage onto me.

He will say I haven't paid the lunch account, which isn't true and that I am behind in daycare, which isn't true. He will also say I am not paying him half the costs for the stuff he has bought the kids, but he hasn't repaid me either. He gets mad when he sends me a bill and I send him one back so I don't owe him anything. He will twist it into making me look like I am not communicating with him.

I offered to give him half my Christmas bonus of $500 and he told the court he didn't want it so they let me use it for moving expenses. I am sure now he will say I owe it to him.

H has no guilty conscience. He doesn't feel bad about anything and if he does, he knows how to stuff it down deep. I have to let it out or else I want to explode.

WH