Completely agree with above. I read the book and came to the forum desperate to save my marriage and quickly learned that DB was about something bigger than that -saving myself. That will always be worth it.
Don't worry about mistakes you made. We all do it in the beginning. Some of the things I said and did (I sent lots of articles too) make me cringe but you can't take it back so dont worry about it.
5 months is not very long although it feels like forever. I am at 6 months and constantly cycling through phases of anger sadness regret etc. I also suffer from anxiety that my h held over my head ( he would stop X if I got on meds) I did start taking meds after BD and feel so much better now.
Sounds like you have some good plans going. Keep it up. Keep the focus on you and your daughter. Keep coming here for dupport. We are here for each other.
Julie
Me 44 H 42 M 10 T 12 (at time of BD) Ss 20 16 S11 (special needs)
BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom 10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied S and I move out 3/15
