25yearsmlc, I picked up a toy easter chic that lights up from meijer last night. I came home with it and told her I brought home a chic because she was lonley, so I thought the chic would give you some company, I created some suspense with this chic coming over to our house. I then said her she is an I gave it to her and it was flashing and she started laughing and told me that was sweet etc.. She then told me the last time I gave her a farm animal she married me. I did something like this when we first met, with a candy pig pez dispenser, she loved it back then. I was using my sense of humor. I believe it went over well.
She was blowing my phone up with text and calls when I didn't answer it right away yesterday. It seem like when I pull away she wants to pull me back in.
When she tells me she notices my change, she tells me its like I'm some new man and she even called me fantastic. I was giving her attention affection, affermation, helping around the house, listening more to her. When she would talk about the M, I would just listen and show empathy etc.. I did notice thats when she noticed my changes. I stopped drinking completely. I even tell her if she would like an extra hour of sleep, I would drive step son to school. I have actually helped out with this more. I even get up in the morning just to talk with her about anything. I even talk to my DB coach chuck who said the same thing that its ok to persue her some. When ever she talks about my shortcomings I tell her she right I did take her for granted by doing XYZ etc.. I still do it. I'm trying to remember how I was when we first met. I had the more I don't care attitude until she won my heart over which didn't take to long. She has this personality that just draws you in. We did everything together, she loved riding on my Harley. I gave her alot of attention. I'm trying to really figure out how to break the ice with step son.
For example last week W forgot her lunch at home and she asked if I could bring it to her, I brought it to her, I put a card in her lunch box it said on the front "the small things in life make the big things in life" Inside I wrote "W Have a great Day with smiley face, love H". I left and about 2 minutes later she called me, saying that was really sweet of you. She then asked me if I felt uncomfortable at her work I said no. When I dropped the lunch box off to her, she appeared to want to hug me but she hesitated and didn't. She then said she hates the this lobby. We ended the conversation and then ten minutes later she called me back. She said to me she didn't know what to think of the card I gave her and she then started telling me how she just wants to run away from all of this and just go with her heart, being alone etc.. I told her I understand why she would think this way. She then had to get back to work.
So it does seem she likes when I do nice things like this, however it looks like she gets cold feet or is it a test.
The next day I tried to stay dim and she had mentioned to me she didn't here from me all day and its funny how you get me a card the day before and the next day nothing.
She has told me several times she is confused and has asked my why are you doing this now and that it makes her angry about my changes. I continue to be this way. I just need to figure out a plan and some balance with this
