Take Two ...

[Train]

Just found out OW's H has retained legal counsel ... at the same firm that would represent me. My L told me OW's H has "a lot" of information ... "much more" than even I was able to gather. That means he's been getting more over the past few weeks since H has been gone and, clearly, still carrying on his EA/PA. I assumed that was the case and have been dealing pretty well with detaching from it.

Apparently, the legal partners are wanting to work together to share information, and OW's H has acknowledged he's willing to work with me and share information. My L said he wouldn't tell me the extent of OW's H's information until I signed a waiver, acknowledging I don't mind the firm representing us both. That will happen in the next two days.

To know that information feels the equivalent of snooping. It might help me eventually, in a legal sense. But I JUST NOW started feeling better after all the information *I* had uncovered. (Not snooping, for the record, is the absolute best medicine for anxiety; it has saved my sanity.) I'm not sure I'm ready to see what OW's H has; my L said it is "bad" and would really help solidify/further my case.

I am literally sick. I had given my H a "golden ticket" out of this nightmare when I sent him an e-mail that OW's H sent to me, saying he was going to work to repair his M. That "forgiveness" literally took H off the hook, legally, for his part in this. I told him if he stopped talking to/pursuing OW at that time - which was about a month ago - he would be legally clear from a suit from OW's H. I'm such an enabling fool.

My H is now a sitting duck, apparently with stacks of evidence against him.

L said even if the OW's H files suit against H, courts will always consider alimony and child support a precedent ... even if OW's H's judgment against H comes down first. So I'm still protected and okay to "hurry up and wait" with filing.

I think I'll just tell my L to hold onto this new "evidence," though. I don't want to see it now. And there's no need because, for now, I'm just letting things ride ... until H withholds money from me or substantially decreases what he's giving me now. At that point, I'd have to file for a S. And then I guess I'd HAVE to see what evidence he has because I'll have to use it.

I had *just* started feeling better.

Someone remind me to breathe ...