Wants to leave again after a month!!!

[DFE]

Thanks Mr Bond. I needed that but it will take me a long time to start valuing myself again.

So last night was a bad night. We had a rough talk during the day where I asked him if he was 100% sure this is what he wanted. Well that spiraled down a nasty dirty path.

Last night I went out with a friend. Had way too much to drink mixed with the Xanax I had taken earlier it was a recipe for disaster. I came home to tell him he should take a trip. A breather and come back and we can work out the details. Well when he rolled his eyes at me and basically told me to f off I lost it. 1.5 hours later our kids woke up from my yelling and that's where it ended.

Today he sent me an email saying he is done with me. He tried to be nice and do it in a friendly manner but I have forced him to fight. He said obtain an attorney because that's what I am doing.
he also said to decide if I am leaving or if he is and it must be done today.

It crushed me. I sent him an email just telling him that i didn't want to fight. I loved him and it hurt me that we had to close this chapter of our lives but i couldn't force him to stay or love me. I wanted to do it without attorney's. He never responded.

What do i do? Just let him walk out the door when he only came back a month ago? We haven't had a chance to work on anything but I can't stop him from running. I am so devastated and crushed for my family. I love him despite all that has happened because for some sick reason i think he still loves me underneath all the anger and hurt he is carrying around.

I miss him and he hasn't even left yet. How do I get through to someone who is so resentful right now. How do I get him to stick around long enough for me to DB a little and get back to where we were a few weeks ago? HELP I am lost.