Upwards - DB myself to happiness! #2

[Upwards]

I'd say i've detached massively & have fully accepted that my marriage as it was is completely finished, I wouldn't want to go back to that anyway i'd want to build a new relationship with my H.

Some days it really hits me hard but I suppose its a process that I need to go through to keep moving forwards, instead of fighting the tears I came home & let them flow, I really needed it & feel much better for it. I am a very strong person and tend to just "keep going" and that often means I ignore the signs that actually I need to just fall apart, have a good cry and then get back up again - I'm learning though! Each time I have a day like this I feel a little bit stronger afterwards so i've tried to keep that in mind today.

I see this opportunity as a gift, i'm able to see things with so much clarity & understand things that went wrong much better. I have learnt so much about myself and i'm bettering myself all the time, I wouldn't have been able to do that without this separation so thats a plus point for me. My confidence is growing and I know my worth, I know that I deserve to be loved & respected and if my H cant offer that then i'm ready and willing to walk away for good.

I just become overwhelmed sometimes, tiredness & hormones play a big part in that!