WANT TO COAST ON FLAT LAND

[Ambivalent]

Yeah, it is a double edged sword.

I just wish I knew what it is. Dating as an adult is SOOO different.


Yes it is very scary...I question , I analyze, and I try to communicate.

Yesterday after being dropped off, he texts me within two hours...

" Made it back. Going into work now. Miss you already. Kiss."

Yesterday I got

" Where are you baby? Why are you not in my arms when I wake up? I miss you. Certain parts of me miss you extra! Kiss. "

He rearranged the whole past weekend for me, even worked out seeing his parent's at another time! He is demonstrative, always affirming, and goes out of his way to treat those around him with respect and appreciation! It is heady, and I am trying to just enjoy. I am finding I have triggers. YUP!

I bet you all probably know them too! T R U S T ! I know he is feeling limmerance, as well as I. I know hormones and chemicals are coursing. I also know that the emotion of happiness is with us both when we are together. He has started humming, when walking together or doing little things. He didn't do that before! Ha! And yes by God the sex in unbelievable!!!

We also have so much in common: Military parents, close in age, politics, religion/spirituality, outlook on our past marriage and how we treat and speak of them, children, music, attitude, it is almost creepy... I've never had so much in common with a man! Ha!

So I am going to try and just be... not get ahead of myself and allow the gift to contribute to my inner joy. I am frightened, I ache when I don't get to see him. I am very vulnerable, yet so pleased. I am also again, ambivalent