Ok but what have you learned to interact positively with your W? I mean she still lives with you so the interactions you have together could grow into positive ones. Not necessarily for you to get a good M, but so you can actually grow in that area.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.