[Maritimer]

Hey PS, Things are crazy busy trying to get the house in order, Lawyers, transferring utilities all for the April 2 move in date.

So yes, I got the house! A bit nervous and excited the same time. This will be better as I am 2.5km from the ex's place so exchanging of the kids will be less time consuming than the 30 minute commute each way that I do now. There is a big back yard to play in and they get there own rooms.

My idea of success is to heal from this pain. The pain of losing so much, from my time away from my children and losing the woman I expected to spend the rest of my life with. Still having trouble detaching.. She is just so darn attractive, After all the pain she put me through I would go back to her in a flash if she wanted me to. It would be whats best for our family. Seeing my boys cry every time I leave hurts me so much. Dont look like it effects her at all, No one wants to see there children in pain.

I need to reevaluate my definition of success. Me moving closer to the kids and spending more time with them is the first step.