To be honest... If he isn't showing any sign of wanting to make things work, to change especially after an A I would lean that you need to focus on you and your kids if you have any.

Find a therapist if you’re not seeing one. All you can do is take care of you and from what you said you need that badly.

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy