Obviously it's my fault that I keep going through this with him. I keep letting it happen. I just don't know how to stop because I know in my heart it's not the best for us. He is struggling with something. His behaviours are not normal and i keep trying to "fix him" . i need to realize that there is nothing I can do. Eventually one day my kids will be grown and they will eventually get used to the idea of daddy not having lived with us. I just wish it didn't have to be so.
He has asked me to lunch to discuss the details. I am dreading it but it needs to be done. I will not beg or plead as i know from past experience it won't help. I love him in some sick way but i think it's the man i fell in love with not who he has become. I feel sad for him.
Off i go to deal with my fate.
My .02-your H is s a big boy, he can fix himself if he chooses. Don't use up any more precious minutes of your life doing things for others that they are capable of doing for themselves. I battle fixit-itis on an almost daily basis. It doesn't just go away, you have to work at it.
That work involves fixing you. As long as we're preoccupied with someone else's "problems" it keep the focus off us.
What are you doing for you?
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
