Just checking in. Am actually doing pretty well. I have finally figured out something I already knew! Action speaks louder than words. Of course we all know this, but in order to break down my H's walls I have to REALLY take action! By that I mean taking an inventory of myself and doing things that I may not like doing, or think I'm not good at, and do them anyway. I'm not saying that I will be doing anything that goes against my moral compass! There are things that I've known all along that I should do, feel good when they are done but hate doing them...these things have been a big part of our issues.
I feel like I'm over that beginning phase of not being able to function and wanting to cry all of the time. Still worried it may be too little too late, BUT I heard something the other day that really clicked: If you want to save your marriage you have to believe that you can! That is hard to do sometimes but it makes sense.
J
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
