I'm finding that I often have a hard time being present in the moment. Since BD, I'll be playing a game with D7, but find that my mind is on the sitch instead of really focused on enjoying my time with her. As another example, things might seem positive with my H, but then I'll start thinking that there's no way he's coming back and we're definitely going to get D. And then, my mind jumps into the future to worry about how I'm going to find someone else to date. Because I've been with my husband since I was 18, I don't have any idea how to date. Then, I jump to worrying about my daughter having a stepparents. My parents split up when I was 7. My mom has been married (and D'd) 5 times. My dad remarried when I was 13 and I had a pretty bad experience with my stepmother, so I'm pretty terrified of that. It takes me about 2 seconds to get WAY ahead of myself.
I think this is one of the things about myself that I want to change. I want to really be present in the moment. I also don't want to be so worried about tomorrow (or next month, or next year) that I'm not enjoying today. Does anybody have a book/article recommendation that deals with this?
