Upwards - DB myself to happiness!

[Upwards]

Yeh for sure, this is the only way forward now - I've learnt when DB that if something feels "wrong" or "different" then I'm doing the right thing!

My 180s have certainly got his attention, over the past few weeks I've slowly increased their intensity up to this biggie which is complete NC and knowing him as well as I do he'll most likely feel like he's lost his arm right now as his 'safety blanket' has been removed - most importantly though the 180s have given me the strength & self respect to stand up for myself, be my own person and set healthy boundaries that will help to make ME happy.

I'm by no means healed, but I'm beginning to feel like I'm moving in that direction.