You're right those are not realistic options are they.
Nop, they are not, but look God its giving you the clarity to be able to see it.
I'm just hurt and feel like I have no control and want some control over something. You can regain control over yourself, this is the time.
I've been wanting our marriage to work and have been working on myself for the past few months, but this circumstance is too much for me to handle. I think I would be able to handle an affair, but not a kid.
Thats fine nobody "expects" that you are able to do it, sometimes in life we have to say "enough" and focus in other things.
Who knows maybe ill change my mind in a couple of months or a year, but I doubt it.
Do always what it feels healthier for you...and if you doubt write it here and we will help you...
You will come out of this, stronger than now.
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
