One of my "goals" very early on was to work on being more open and responsive with my feelings. One of the "valid" complaints my SO had about me was that I did not readily answer the ILYs. My family was so not affectionate and his was, but I thought this was something I could work on.
Of course, I won't point out the obvious that words turned out not too mean all that much ILY but I am screwing around and lying to you kinda negates the words.
I did think that being able to reciprocate better would be a good skill to have for my next relationship. I did not expect it from Skippy. But I did think something was up.
And, as I have been warned, they do like to come out to play during holidays - my BD in this case.
I received a text wishing my a happy BD and an ILY and miss you.
I do not trust those words at face value, even though I was surprised they were said.
Sigh, the thing is I still did not know how to respond to them, so while I replied/texted thanks and a few other things, I ignored those words. But I don't quite feel right about doing so. Not because I think they mean anything but because if I am working on my "softer side" (for anyone), they should not just be ignored or at least I don't think so.
FY and Bea, I appreciated your suggestions. I tried to think of a funny way to respond but couldn't and Bea, that response did not seem to fit the circumstances (although the thought sure did cross my mind!) but I was glad for perspectives other than my own.
I don't trust his words but it seems very "old Portia" to ignore them. I am so not good at this bit!
