My first union job is going well. Funny thing about making more money... seems the government and union takes more.
With all the initiation fees and extra fees, I'll pretty much break even on this show. So.. not earning yet.. but feel like I'm heading in the right direction.
In other big news - there's a new lady in my life. We are not officially dating. We've been friends for a long time, but things changed between us about 2 weeks ago. For those of you who remember me talking about my friend in my last thread - YEP. It's her.
Needless to say it's complicated and intense. She's on a journey to fix some things about herself. Her last relationship taught her some things she needed to change. Me - having feelings for someone other than my x brings up new fears. Sometimes I want to run when it get's too complicated.. but I convince myself to stay every time.
It's definitely a process. We seem to continue to move toward each others and I'm good with that. Her request was to help her grow as an individual. My request was that we both stepped boldly regardless of our fears when it came to each other.
So it's a day at a time. Maybe we will have a relationship. Maybe I will want more.. I don't know. Staying in the present is key for me right now. Acknowledging my fears and not allowing them to get the better of me is crucial.
However at the same time - I feel a sense of calm. I'm kinda like "he!!, if I can get through a Divorce and at the end of the day - be thankful... this is cake.". That thought keeps me grounded.
So yah - exciting stuff in my life. Hopeful, cautious, but always trying to be loving in everything I do.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
