I'm really upset and angry with my W right now. When my oldest son told me he loved me and would miss me and gave me a big hug it broke my heart. He is catching on to the situation and he should not have to miss his mom or dad. The kids are just innocent bystanders in this, yet they have to share in the pain.
I am completely pissed off that she chooses to live across town and that she chose to move out instead of directly addressing the issues she has in our M. We could have and can still work on us from the same house so the kids don't have to be separated.
I am pissed that she may have moved out and separated because of the convenience of the rent free vacant home. I feel this was a selfish act that has done unnecessary emotional pain to more than just her and I.
I am pissed at me for not recognizing what the issues were in our relationship and my personal unhappiness and the effect it had on the W and my family.
And ultimately I am pissed that I cannot openly express my feelings, pain, pleasure, happiness, disappointments, joy, fears, hopes, dreams, etc with her because the WAS does not care about these things unless it is what they feel. The emotional state of the LBS means nothing to them.
Wooooooooooo (big exhale). I feel a little better now. I needed to get that out of me.
M:34 XW:34 Together: 10y Living: 9y Married: 7y Son:6 Son:4 Separated: 12/28/13 Piecing: 5/2/14 Separated 2nd: 10/16/14 W filed, but pulled it: 11/5/14 papers served: 1/27/15 D final: 3/6/15
