You're right those are not realistic options are they. I'm just hurt and feel like I have no control and want some control over something. I've been wanting our marriage to work and have been working on myself for the past few months, but this circumstance is too much for me to handle. I think I would be able to handle an affair, but not a kid.
When it comes down to it I'm done. Even if she wants to save the marriage at this point I just don't want to.
Who knows maybe ill change my mind in a couple of months or a year, but I doubt it.
