melissa, continued part 2

[bluesgal]

Oh M-this is so hard and frustrating. I spent the weekend with friends and had fun with their incredible family and pangs of heartache knowing that mine may never be like that again.

I agree with PM. Your H told you his frustrations directly. I can imagine you've spent years telling him how you felt and he didn't care/understand. I don't know how you get past that. This is a dynamic that you guys have probably always struggled with. I wish I could help and offer you advice. Instead just know that I'm thinking of you.