Bug, thanks for answering my questions. I do get it. I was also a person who planned everything in the future. Actually it was not the planning itself, but a run of possible scenarios and an attempt to select the best possible. This drove me crazy sometimes and H blamed me for inability to make a decision, even about some small everyday stuff.

I’m trying to live today and not obsess about the future. I feel so much better now. Your story inspired me every time I read your updates.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state