I think I belong here....

[praying_in_GA]

Here are just a few musings I had running through my head today....

He doesn't not love me. He loves me as a mother and as his friend of 14 years. His intense, marriage type love for me is gone. We went from amazing friends to married and back to amazing friends. He loves his kids. He doesn't hate me or the kids. He hates where his life ended up. He told me earlier that a text I sent back in Dec was more true than he admitted at the time. He had given up on his plans, hopes, and dreams....he had resigned himself to being a father and husband doing as we (the kids and wife) wished until the end. I totally agree that life around here became just about the kids, his studying, and my work schedule.

Anyway, he doesn't want to hurt me or the kids....he wants to go see what else is out there to see if something can make him happy and enjoy life again.

I don't know where this will lead him but I do know I will come out stronger in the end. I don't feel strong right now...I feel weak and hurt and scared....but eventually I will stand taller and figure out my new life with or without the man I love.