Realization is a big step in the whole process....and it has some strange twists. Some are you looking in the mirror and realizing your bad points as well as good points. Some are realizing that no matter how much you loved some one, gave them everything of yourself, that they in fact might not necessarily realize who YOU are.
Jealousy...Now that is an evil demon dear...just evil. Jealousy also leads to expectations, etc. It is healthy in your case though if you handle it and keep it controlled. My question to you though...Is how to change your perspective on what he is doing in regards to charity? Hint: This has to do with detaching and seeing the big picture
