Mediation and the realization........PartV

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Moving, Moving, Moving.............and a friend suggests I take a road trip to the Mid-Atlantic the end of June

When I moved into the house I remember saying to myself "Thank god! Its the last move ill have to make- This is now home"

Que up the music "Our house...is a very very very fine house...with two dogs....."

Now im 38 yo and packing up to move into a apartment.....Ive already been at that step,isnt this moving backwards???

My status on Maslows Hierarchy of needs took a tumble the last year as well.

Here I sit today designing a plan for a new life. If my "roots" have been blown to shnit and I have a license to go almost anyplace on Earth......where should I go????????

......I stay right where I am for one more year- There is too much unfinished business and I dont like the feeling of "running away".

Is it time to get a temp check on my X? I get alot of grief about not knowing ANYTHING about her current life. Is she seeing someone? Where is she living?......No clue but her arse better be at the designated spot at the designated time on the designated day for me to have my D4 back.

In my recent reading I learned something very important- "Stop looking for the perfect answer....just make a damn decision- ANY DECISION"

Where do i want to live?
Do I want to buy a car?
What do I want to do?
Do I want to try to re-establish myself here?

Everything happens for a reason...........RIGHT?????

"Dont worry...bout a thing.....cause every little thing....its gonna be alright......."