It's been a extremely rough week and very emotional one for me. Knowing I supported w to get to where she is today with everything I got, but my pay back was betrayal. No thank you or single phone call to show appreciation for my support and understanding for all the yrs I cried and prayed to God to answer her prayer. I was her rock for 8yrs. I stood by her from the beginning of her journey to becoming a M.D and was present to the end.
The first person W called was OM. They both celebrated her good news together. It felt like yesterday, that I drove her to her now final interview. I assured her everything will work out this time around and will be supportive of her goal to the end. I did all that, but my pay back was collateral betrayal. I'm human, and have the right to feel this way.
I'm traveling today to spend the weekend and next week with my daughter. I'm looking forward to seeing her and doing some fun stuff with her.
As for me, all I can do now is take a look at me and fix everything that was lost/broken during this betrayal. I'm doing that already! I'm doing everything in my power to talk to my daughter 4 to 5times a week. I'm working out, riding my bike and looking forward to going back to work in two month. I'm getting out more now and reconnecting with some old friends from school. I also just signed up for cooking class at whole food. I'll be fine! I know that from the bottom of my heart.
