Upwards - DB myself to happiness!

[Upwards]

Very true Breakdown.

I went to work this morning to arrange things there so we dont have to see each other - naturally it moved onto talk about "us" and we talked alot about what we've been through and how he feels he doesnt love me but fully admits that he cant allow himself to feel love as it makes him vulnerable. He said he's realised that he does want to be with me & his family and that he thinks he may be making a big mistake, when I asked why he's doing it then he said "fear"

When I was going he picked me up and cuddled me & said he's going to miss me so much, that he thinks about me all the time & doesnt know how he's going to live without me & he feels sick to his stomach that its over... it was on the tip of my tongue to say "thats because you love me" but I resisted. I cried, he shed a tear then we went our separate ways.

This is going to be SOOO hard but I know its the best way to get myself into a better place plus I think it has given him the kick up the bum to look at his fears and figure out what he wants from life. How i'm going to resist contacting I have no idea but i'm going to try my best.