How do you do THIS part...

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SP

have not been seeing a therapist, but I have been considering one.

Probably a good idea.

SP, I know making the decision to see help is difficult. But if you fell down and broke your leg, would you drag yourself around until it healed?

You've been thinking about a therapist for a long time. It took me years before I really committed to getting better. Like an alcoholic I thought if I continued to get out of bed, function,
hold a job I must be OK. I wasn't. I, like you, had a heavy heart, my life seemed to have no purpose, I found no joy in things, I felt no love. My important Rs cracked.

I wasted a lot of life.

Things can be different.