Being basically NC with W allows me to kind of live in this fantasy in my head where my M has all the new tools I have learned and the new me in it. It feels good.
I have been "covertly" using and practicing some of my communication tools at work and have noticed changes in my employees and the overall attitude of others in the office. It really is true that one person can make changes in others.
This success in my personal growth has me excited about what could be possible in my M. I just need to settle down and move forward with me and try not to fantasize about what could be.
It is hard though because I have been full of positive thoughts so much lately that I think positively about the future of my M. When these negative feelings hit me they really shock me as I have not been this happy/positive in a long time.
M:34 XW:34 Together: 10y Living: 9y Married: 7y Son:6 Son:4 Separated: 12/28/13 Piecing: 5/2/14 Separated 2nd: 10/16/14 W filed, but pulled it: 11/5/14 papers served: 1/27/15 D final: 3/6/15
