She left - 2

[gogofo]

I think that the NC had pumped up my progress a little. With the ups ands down of contact I find myself thinking and assuming about her thoughts today.

AHH!

Now the W was texting to ask about swapping kids. I ask if she is going to eat dinner with me and the kids, because last week she asked me over fro dinner and for a talk (the talk never happened). Is this putting pressure on her?

She now is changing her tone about the talk. She texted that "she didn't know if I still wanted to" and it was "up to me." She told me to decide and that she "did not want to mess with my time."

I know I do not want to pressure her into a talk until she is ready. So I responded "Makes no difference to me, it won't change my plans one way or another."

Again I am more confused about what she is doing. My assumption (hope) is that she is seeing the changes in me and did not want to bring up the talk last week because we had a good night of sharing conversation and laughs. I doubt she cared too much if I was sick or not.

She seems to be projecting her indecision onto me, not owning the feelings herself.

Here I go assuming again, but maybe she is reconsidering me as a suitable husband again and it is making it hard for her to stick to her guns of wanting to leave me.

Anyone else see this kind of interaction from their WAS?

Man my emotions are rolling up and down this afternoon, but I have a meeting to go to so I will be taken away from thinking about this for a while.