I think I belong here....

[praying_in_GA]

Job, excellent words. And true. Labels don't mean anything...the wanted end result is the same.

So, I woke up way too early for work this afternoon. H asked why I was up. I told him I couldn't sleep so I might as well get up. He said he was sorry for putting me in this position. He can't imagine how hard it is to be in limbo and as soon as I am tired of it and him to tell him to go. He said we would know more at the end of the year. I asked why then. He said that was how long I had asked him to stay and try. (Our first talk, almost a month ago now) He alluded to the 'fact' that he still thought things would end with us separated/divorced but he will stay as long as I want him here. He isn't necessarily trying to work on things, but he is here to see what happens. He told me his friend is just a friend and he wouldn't do anything with her. (I know, I know, don't worry!) He said let's just see how this year ends. He will know more about the Navy in Nov then graduation in Dec.

I feel like such baby in this moment, but what next? He is here but he isn't trying but he is willing to let me try to change this sitch??