She left - 2

[gogofo]

Tonight is a the big night. Nothing changed in our contact the since the increase last week, back to one or two messages at night. She is back teaching and her schedule is booked up so the extended messages may have been due to her being on spring break.

Trying to remain strong during the day right now, but I am feeling a little apprehensive and honestly scared a little about what may come of tonight.

I really want to hear what she has to say and will STFU when she is talking, but I am nervous as to what direction the talk will go. Getting kids and cooking dinner tonight will help take my focus off of the talk, but right now it is at the forefront of my mind.

I need to stop assuming what she is thinking and wait for her to say it, but it is too easy right now to go down a rabbit's hole of her assumed thoughts... both good and bad.