HI Melissa I read all of your posts. I seem to relate to your situation so much because it seems so similar to mine. I think of what you are going through often. I am completely with you on the 50/50 custody and on the "it hurts if he's nice" "it hurt's if he's not" You seem to be a very very strong person.
W-38 H-42 T-11 M-8 C-6,2,6 months BD-Oct 1 2013 DFiled-Jan 6 2014 Went Dark - April 4, 2014