[Maritimer]

Im doing what I can to become strong again PS, This whole situation has been such a blow to my self esteem its hard to find that confident guy I was 11 years ago.

I do need to totally let go. Friends, family and my therapist are all against me wanting to reconcile. All I want is whats best for the kids and firmly believe that would be in a 2 parent household. That is beyond my control.

Its hard to have hope and let go at the same time. I cannot do both. My next step for me to move forward, I need to let go of any hope we have on reconciling. The only thing I can control is myself and be the best Dad I can for my boys.

Thanks for the support Postivespin, I really needed that today!