Upwards - DB myself to happiness!

[Upwards]

I feel so broken today, tears are flowing and I keep having panic attacks I know this is for the best, I know I need to leave him to sort his life out and walk his own path but the pain I feel inside is ripping me apart. I miss him more than words can say, the pain I feel inside is so powerful & strong and its making me want to curl up and die - I feel so alone.

I keep telling myself i'm strong but I dont feel it, I feel anything but strong. I wanted my marriage to work more than anything, I would have moved heaven and earth to make it happen for my family, now i've let him go to live the life he's chosen and it hurts so so bad.

I know things will get better, they have to, it just doesnt feel like it right now.