I too am sorry that your xh is creating so much pain for you and yes WE here do understand the bazaar behavior all too well
The crises has definitely grown me up and although I sometimes wished I had picked a "different" H to marry, I believe I had to go through this probably just as much as XH had to Hang in there..remember it is not your fault .and truth will always win in the end you have come through a lot and you will get through this phase of it too
Peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow