Not much new, seem to be on that upward ride again. Saw C today and she gave me some tips on stopping the negative thoughts. She also seems to think that H is emotionally abusive, not sure I agree with that in general but feel like he is being now. He def has to control everything, which we've often argued about.

My head is telling me to give up, my heart still wants to work it out. I guess only time will tell, in the meantime I know what I need to do, just a matter of doing it consistently.

J


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since