This, That and The Other

[BrightFuture]

It wasn't a question of wanting to try with H instead of someone new, my hesitation would have been because my life was pretty great without him. I didn't want to lose everything I'd gained. I figured at some point in the future someone might show up that I would be interested in but it didn't weigh on my mind. If it was to happen, it would happen.

Sometimes I have the same feelings, that at some point I will be in a place where I would like my life and would not care it would work out with H or not. I’m not quite there yet, but having these feelings to pop up once in a while is a good sign.

I'm not determined to make it work. I'm determined to be present every day as my best self. To be open, honest, respectful and to communicate my needs, my love and my anger. I watch for creeping resentment and figure out how to deal with it if it's there. (I have some right now that I'm working on ;/ )

I can also see myself doing this, just be present.

I practice gratitude.

I do too, and it helps enormously. I don’t have any anger towards H anymore. At least I haven’t had that feeling for some time now. It could come back, IDK.

Hmmmm...I don't have doubts, I think because I have very few expectations. Yesterday was good, today was good, we'll see what tomorrow brings. I try not to worry about tomorrow, or look too far into the future. That was one of my problems in the past.

It is hard to imagine that you have no expectations. Do you have a hope that your R with your H will continue to improve? Would you be hurt if it doesn’t work out? My thinking is that when you let someone into your heart (again), you naturally have some expectations, or at least hope for the better. Just trying to understand.

BK, I’ve read that article too. Thanks for the info. I’m curious about your questions too. Will wait for the answers.