Upwards - DB myself to happiness!

[Upwards]

I did Plan A first...for a long time....until I felt like I had become the man only a fool would leave. Only at that point did I decide to go to Plan B. And honestly, I've waivered on Plan B (which is in essence a boundary) many times....each time only to be disappointed and hurt.

I just cant stay in contact with him in that way whilst he's got her on the side, its something that I'm just not willing to do and don't believe I should have to do it. We've tried being friends up until now but knowing he's seeing OW too is just going to make me ill so I need to draw a line.

I had hoped to not pressure him but I don't think I can do it anymore, I have to protect myself now. Its gunna be soooo hard to do as we have the kids & a joint business together but I know its needs doing.

I want my marriage to surivive more than anything but I also need to protect myself so I can be in good shape for the kids, i'm no good to them as an emotional wreck!