Your description of why you think you're doing the way you're doing it is WAYYYY too analytical. I think what you need to do is to start doing things more on impulse and "feeling" rather than being so logical. Sometimes you sound like Mr. Spock when you're describing your emotions when it shouldn't be that thoughtful.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
