Very bizarre happenings last evening. Our son was away in after program and I decided to watch a sex education film that was very explicit. w was locked in her bedroom with headphones on so I didnt expect to see her and even if I did expected her to just brush it off and have her go on about her business. She pokes her head out and asks me what im watching. I stopped the film and didn't respond. She comes out to me and asks me again and I answer her honestly. She then asks why I would be watching a video of that and I say ...
"Im looking into all aspects of my life and things I can make better, I will make better"
She then decides to actually sit down and watch it WITH me! It was awkward at first but I then decided to take it as it comes and asked her flirtatiously...
"So you're interested in this program"?
She says that she needs to learn too for her "next partner"!?!?
HEARTBREAK! but I didn't show it. I wanted to turn the program off right there but then she would ask what's wrong and I didn't want to get into it. I waited till she went out and then turned it off. I then yelled at my TV...
"THAT WAS F'N WEIRD!!!
Today is my anniversary. I know im not supposed to feel the way I feel to be DBing successfully but im ok outside and inside a picture of emotional disaster
Me 43 W 43 S 10 (Special Needs) M: 14 yrs T: 18 yrs Bomb: 09/16/12 Filed for D: WHO KNOWS???
