Yes Unbidden, it was so painfull but I didnt showed her that it hurted me, I took all the punches and didnt respond her back, just listened to her.... I am taking care of my life and my stuff, but it hurts terribly to see how the person that I love so much its hurting herself so terribly...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
I feel as I felt many times, like its my responsability to make her life better... Like I want to talk to her father and ask him why he did to her all the abuse he did... And God I know its her own path and she is the one who has to walk it... Its just that for me it will be much easier if she just ask for what she needs instead of closing herself in that world that she has created...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
At least today, I feel calm, serenity and just let go and let God....all I can do is take care of myself and my life...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
I need your support guys ;( I am so confussed and I do need somebody to tell me what they see from the outside...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
I feel as I felt many times, like its my responsability to make her life better... Like I want to talk to her father and ask him why he did to her all the abuse he did... And God I know its her own path and she is the one who has to walk it... Its just that for me it will be much easier if she just ask for what she needs instead of closing herself in that world that she has created...
You're in 12 step, you know her past, the world is not a safe place for her. She could get help, but she chooses not to right now.
Keep working on you.
Hang in there.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
You did so well to stay and calm and not try to "rescue" her, she needs to go through this process and she has to go through this on her own in her own way/time.
This is one thing i've realised the past few weeks - My H needed to blame me, hate me and to go through those emotions to validate what he had done, it made what he's done ok in his heads and eased the guilt somewhat. When there has been distance between us he's not been able to direct his blame at me and has been forced to look at himself, this has helped with his resentments towards me and his respect for me has begun to grow again. Its a process, a slow process and unfortunately the only thing we can do is sit back and protect ourselves the best we can whilst is all going on.
Keep doing what your doing ye21, your bound have days where its really difficult and its ok to fall apart when you need to but always ask yourself "will this help in the long term" before you do anything relating to your W.
Keep focusing on YOU and how you can build yourself up.
Divorce Final: Oct 2014
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