I'm sorry. I'm not sure there is any amount of detachment (unless maybe you're the WAS) that will make it OK to receive that in the mail.
Why the heck did he put your maiden name on a check? Can you even cash a check that is written to your maiden name? And on the envelope, too. Why? Is it just to twist the knife a little? I guess you will never know - that part just really struck me.
I have thought about that quite a bit - I think at the beginning of a sitch, the thought that you will be OK even if you get D is not believable enough to get you by. Hope for my M being restored is what got me through those very difficult first few months. It is only recently that I realized I don't really have that hope anymore, but now I can get by knowing that I really will be OK if/when we do get D. Now, to get where you are, I just need to somehow get rid of the hurt too.
I am glad you have gotten to the place you are, and I think that maybe it was a good thing that your H didn't file until now. Hopefully you can get this done quickly, and start your new life in your new apartment!!
You are an inspiration, Mimi.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14